Saturday, May 26, 2007
okie.. i realli dunno wad m i now.. haix.. realli veri stress up.. todae went out to buy a bag.. hehe.. but although its not veri nice.. but i like it.. lolx.. i realli dunno wads goin on in my family.. it seems that oni i m affected.. n not my sis.. my mother n sis are packin the bag.. they are leaving for malaysia.. too bad i cant join.. bcoz holidae is near.. n i dun wanna miss ani lesson animore.. i hav miss alot of lesson alreadi.. haix.. my life is upside down.. i hav ruin my life.. in sch i m like suck big time.. teacher teachin mi sleepin.. but tryin to stay awake most of the time.. even if stay oso dunno wad she talkin about.. haix.. one dae i will gone crazy man.. haix.. i realli dun understand wad the adult are tinkin.. i m always in the wrong.. my sis is cleverer den mi.. she express best class some more.. haix.. mi leix.. always like to playaful in class.. cannt sit still n listen to teacher.. sometimes i realli feel like sittin down in one corner cryin.. where no ppl will noe.. for mi they think that i m always bringin happiness to ppl around mi.. but wad is on the inside of mi they dunno.. yes its true.. i realise that i bring happiness to ppl around mi.. except my family members.. its time for mi to do something.. but i juz dunno wad to do.. :'( i wanted to work part time so that i can earn money n spend myself.. but they juz dun allow mi.. n i noe.. once i m into this i will into this.. haix.. i m realli veri sick of my life.. wen i m sick.. ppl wont noe.. bcoz i m always bringin happiness to ppl around mi.. there are actualli alot of things that i m worried about.. things like relationship, friendship, and family.. i dun tink i suit to even go into a relationship.. bcoz i juz cant help myself.. there are too mani restriction which i cant get it.. n i hate it.. i juz wan my freedom.. i wan to b single n i wan my freedom.. where is my freedom? :'(.. there is one thing which i like about mi.. wen i end my dae sad.. the next dae i wake up.. i will b fine.. no more sad.. but nth good about it.. bcoz once i start a new dae.. it will end up sad again.. i juz dunno wad the ell my family is up to.. haix.. i really dun understand.. all the problem is on mi.. i juz feel like cryin.. but hu will listen to my sorrows? wad will they tink wen i hav sorrows? will they think that i m juz makin a big fuss out of myself? i noe there are ppl out there worst then mi.. but sometimes.. haix.. i hate myself.. i hate everithing about mi.. i juz hate it.. argh.. teacher call mi sae talk to mi about my work.. she tinks that i can do it.. but i juz let her down.. haix.. she pick mi as a role model for the class.. n student leader.. i dun tink i deserve all this lorx.. haix.. exam is comin alreadi.. sj chalet is near too.. should i bring my book n mug on it while everibody is enjoyin themself? i realli dunno where the true denise is.. i shall stop my sorrows here.. thats all folk..
I ate bananas at7:56 PM
