ok .. ankle still hurts ... but hu cares ... lolx ... moi heart still hurts ... wonder wad can i do man ... haix ... i wanna buy alot of stuff but i cant haix ... how i wish i cann man ... argh ... i wish i can spend moi remaining time all i wan .. lolx ... serious depression .. lolx ... haix ... theres nth i can do ...




yoz ... haha ... sianx ... todae mornin suppose to b in sch the mac there by 8 but i over slept ... guess wad time wake up ... i woke up at 8 ... lolx ... den i faster go bathe den change den go meet ed le ... haha ... after tat order the 2 dollar breakfast ... den eat half wae aryani n derek came ... after tat ming jie came too ... haha ... den we eat eat eat n talk talk talk ... den while on the wae back ... i did something to aryani ... oni the ppl ther noe .. hehe ... n she chase mi ... n guess wad ... i sprain moi ankle ... lolx ... so sad ... after tat they go band i go back home n change ... avril called mi so i go over to her house n pei her ... after tat we meet ed they all after their band ... so funny lorx ... i m suppose to meet brian .. but in e end dun hav coz avril keep play o2 jam ... lolx ... den suppose to meet ed at sch ... in e end ... bus over shot ... forget to press bell ... so went to the coffee shop to eat ... after tat ed they all suppose to meet us de ... they took 970 n we were eating half wae ... so we meet at kim seng instead ... so wen we reach there we waited for ed for a long time ... coz they havin lunch at great world ... haha .. den we started our bowl ... hehe ... after bowling we go play pool ... after pool play arcade ... after arcade cut cake as it ish derek birthdae .. hehe ... den after tat i rush to moi last tuition ... den come home eat den now i m blogging .. haha .. so sianx lorx .. nth to do .. haha .. goin mapling soon .. after tat goin jammin ... haha ... now moi ankle hurts .. i noe wad to do .. but leg to hurts lazy to do ... n i tink its too late to do anithing le .. haix .. juz let it b bah ... lolx ...




yeah .. so i din post for quite a while ... hehe .. .lazy to post ... ok ... christmas eve i went to orchard wid moi family .. though the police sae tat illegal hawking of snow spray will b caught ... but there are still some of them sellin n i dun see one ... but wen i come to 12 midnight everibodi spray like hell .. haha .. so fun but den stil not as fun as last yr where wherever eu go ppl will spray eu and sae merry christmas .. lolx .. its like fun lah .. haix .. toopid bangala lah .. spray ppl eye den i molest ppl ... make us so boring ... haha ... this is the first time we use veri little ... coz the atmosphere not realli there lah ... so we went home quite earli ... lolx ... n on christmas dae woke up at 11 den watch tv .. after tat eat lunch ... after lunch go vivo wid moi family ... haha .. in e end go there oni buy moi sis shirt den go off liaox ... haha ... at nite talk on the phone frm 11 plus till this mornin 5 am ... i broke moi record ... haha ... i cant belive tat i realli can tahan till so late lah .. haha ... the last part was wid aryani ... hehe .. had a good chat wid her ... n oh ya ... frm 11 till 4 like tat i was sleep talkin .. haha .. oni wen talkin to aryani i m quite awake lah .. haha ... coz they talk the thing i dunno .. den i eventually close moi eyes and sleep .. hehe .. but i still noe wad they talkin about lah .. not as if sleep until they call mi i dunno .. haha ... so ya .. moi record on talkin on the phone till 5 ... hehe ... but dun sleep ish till 7 plus actualli ish ... ai ya .. forget wad time le lah ... haha ... coz tat time ish chalet .. den we play majong the whole nite .. even give nicks to the tiles .. haha ... so we contiue playin till morinin where we wanna sleep ... den some of them wake up n they wanna go off le ... so we go off wid them oso lorx .. coz the room like no space le .. hehe ... aniwae .. tats all folk .. haha ...




haix ... hav been crying for daes ... mum still dun accept mi goin ite ... keep sayin goin ite is dead road ... hav been msgin ppl about moi prob .. happy coz all comfort mi ... haix ... moi knee hurts ... but no one cares ... haix ... mother treating mi as invinsible .. but i noe she cares .. so i realli make up my mind n prove her wrong .. i alreadi make my heart into study ... i wanna study ... i wanna study in new environment ... i dun wanna study in this stupid sch where all i get ish critizing frm teacher ... i hav let alot ppl down ... including moi councellor ... but of coz i will go back to see her lah ... but i realli let her down lah ... oso not i wan .. chua dun wan mi go up ... sae moi results veri risky ... moi attitude suckx ... no choice ... got to go ite ... haix ... i hav alreadi make moi mind liaox ... no turnin back liaox ... now i wish tat moi mother can give mi one more last chance to show her tat i realli can do it ... haix ... cry n cry oso no use ... so i shall make moi mind liaox .. waitin for moi results for applications .. hope i can go into the course i wan ... shall stop here ... tats all folk ...




hey .. back to bloggin again ... i hav make up moi mind to go ite le .. moi dad support mi .. but not moi mum .. she give mi black face ... its not tat i dun wanna go up .. but its tat sch dun allow mi to go up .. i at least still can enjoy in ite ... haix ... i feel so sad ... T.T .. feel like cryin now ...




ok .. i m back ... got two news .. one ish good n one ish bad ... good ish i pass moi n level which i neber expected ... bad ish coz i cant go up sec 5 ... i oso dunno whether i make the correct choice mah ... haix ... realli feel at the lowest point of moi life now ... i need ppl to talk to mi ... but dun make mi change moi life ... i m not goin to change moi mindset ... i m goin to ite le ... make sure i study hard n do well in ite lorx ... sch cannt mah so ite lorx ... haix ... now i m cryin while typin this blog ... haix ...




ok .. got new family ... hehe ... ah ma-tong ying, ah gong-kelly, mummy-pak meng, cute cute mei mei-shin yi ... haha .. cactus always unite as one ... yeah ... accept for tat toopid WEAKLING .. lolx ... sianx lah .. this sun ish exam liaox ... n i still haven studi lorx ... no in the mood sia .. den mondae ish the dae le .. haix ... wad can i do .. stress ar ... should i enjoy b4 i got for torturing ... haix ... cant take it le ... AAAAAAHHHHHH let it out ... but still not enough ... wat should i do ... they are stressing mi ... haix ...

thats all folk ...




WAD THE FUCK EU WAN WID MI ... EU NOE THAT I CANNT STUDY AND EU STILL FORCE MI TO STUDY ... I HAV MAKE A CHOICE ... EU WANNA LOCK INTERNET LOCK THE TV EVERITHING .. JUZ DUN BLAME MI .. ISH EU ZI ZAO DE ... HAIX ... SOMETIMES I REALLI DUNNO HOW TO COMMUNICATE WID EU ALL ... WEN I TINK ISH RITE EU ALL TINK ISH WRONG ...

haix ... i realli dunno wad i wan oso .. wen i hav decide they make mi feel like i hav make a wrong choise ... haix ... i juz dunno wad to sae n wad to do wid moi liffe... i dun have i life...




hey .. i m back frm camp le ... haha .. realli enjoy e camp ... coz veri enjoyin lah ... veri fun oso ... especialli e times in ubin .. lolx ..

Day 1
report to canberra sec at 7.30am ... veri earli ... lolx .. did e admin stuff... den after tat proceed to area cleaning .. after tat we did our teambuilding .. e mud game was alrite .. hehe ... overall quite fun ... buddy wid dino .. hehe .. our buddy forever .. lolx .. den was lunch ... after lunch was sing along session ... was disturb by triage ... n moi group was the casualty .. haha .. e three gals frm qss in moi group were not given any injury .. so we anihow think .. haha .. so i sae mine was collar bone fractured .. haha .. anihow tink mah .. lolx .. after tat was the briefing for topo n nite sentry duty ... nite sentry duty not really for us .. coz we are in ubin .. hehe .. den was e topo briefing ... veri funny ... we keep doin e foot care hornet attack .. lolx .. haha .. den was dinner .. hehe .. after dinner was group interaction .. we combine wid the dino .. see like wad i sae we are always buddy .. hehe .. den after tat was confident training ... veri fun n disgusting oso ... den was supper .. den was drinkin of water.. after tat was light out ..

Day2
topo dae .. hehe ... wake up at 6o5 bah .. den wanna go toilet .. halfwae all fall in .. so dun care finish le den fall in ... den after tat do some pt .. after pt ish breakfast time .. after breakfast was topo time ... topo was tiring... but it was fun ... haha ... we were doin foot care den ppl walk past veri funny lah .. see us bare footed ... lolx .. den after tat walk halfwae .. we got casualty ... tat make us the last to reach the sleepin area ... coz we are one group mah ... so we muz wait for tat casualty ... hehe ... so we were sittin there n kill mosqitoes .. poor mosqitoes .. kanna kill by us .. lolx .. haha ... after tat we walk to our sleepin area without her ... coz i tink she went toilet bah ... den after tat reach there le .. do all e nessary stuff ... den build basha .. haha .. but veri funny oso .. hehe .. den after tat we go for nite topo .. wah .. look scary but not realli scary lah ... veri fun .. hehe ... den walk on the mud and stuff ... hehe ... haha .. our shoe ish like so nice lah .. lolx ... den was solo walk .. i walk the wrong wae .. argh .. but i not scared .. hehe .. i walk back ... den after tat tell them .. hehe .. den after tat walk again lorx .. but this time ish confirm correct liaox .. haha .. i got e flag to protect mi .. hehe .. i mean wen i was walk i was like holding the flag veri tied lah ... lolx .. but den i still overcome it liaox .. haha .. den after we march back to our sleeping area .. can eu blive it .. lorx ... we were singin in the dark .. lolx ... marching in the dark too lolx ... den went back to sleeping area ... cook supper ... den after tat we brush teeth .. den continue brush teeth ... den continue building basha .. the guys come n help us build ... so kind of them ..hehe ... den we all go sleep .. b4 we continue building tat time we were choosin ppl to go for nite sentry duty .. got this gal .. she already so WEAK but she still wanna do ... dun wan to listen to our advise .. she sae wan its not fair to us .. so i shoot her back .. eu neber sleep ish even not fair to us ... still dun wanna listen ... haix .. she WEAK lah ... n guess wad ... mdm ask her go sleep .. hehe .. she no choice .. she WEAKLING ... while we doin all this its alreadi veri late in the nite horx .. we 3 plus den go sleep ..

Day 3
wake up around 5 but i woke up veri earli coz i was freezing .. hehe .. like i living in freezer man .. lolx .. so cold .. cannt even walk .. hehe ... den after tat we eat breakfast ... den get ready to leave the sleeping place ... hehe .. so cool lorx ... haha .. den we walk to jetty ... half wae do hornet attack .. bag so hearvy liaox ... lol x.. flat liaox .. den got wild bore .. haha .. so fun lah .. after tat reach liaox take boat back to main land .. haha .. den reach sch .. wash shoe .. den go drink salt water .. den go sleep liaox .. veri fun lah .. haha .. three hours of rest .. hehe .. den after tat go back bathe .. n tat ish e first time we bathe .. veri shiok sia ... lolx .. den was lunch .. hehe .. den after tat was sing a long session .. after tat was campfire preparation .. lolx .. den was campfire .. no real fire .. as it rain last min .. argh .. lolx .. but still ok lah .. coz we manage to get high .. hehe .. den was refreshment .. after tat was light off .. hehe .. den after tat go sleep liaox ..

Day 4 ..
home sweet home day .. we played tele match .. not realli good lah .. coz mi n sarah were shoutin like hell like tat lah .. lolx no voice liaox .. haha ..den was debrief .. veri nice lah .. haha .. got alot to sae .. den was home sweet home .. but went sun plaza eat .. den go home ..hehe

tats all ... but horx .. e WEAKLING ... haha .. cannt do pt but ok liaox in telematch .. haix . mi ish no choice lah .. i skip pt coz i not feelin well .. but i still hav to do things mah .. coz i chair man leix .. hehe ..

i realli enjoy the camp .. alot .. better den advance last yr ... haha ... mayb coz this yr go together wid them to ubin .. lolx .. bond are closer .. hehe ... n i got two nick names .. ah tan n cactus no12 .. lolx .. haha ... shall end here ..




haiz ... wad e hell ish goin on wid mi .. there are things happenin this few daes ... but i dunno how to sae it out ... new life realli let mi noe e truth of moiself .. i realli make it liaox .. as i did not realise e real mi wen i was last ...

this time i get to proof moiself that i m able to lead e group lah .. but i tink i still can improve on moi leading area ... i sure can do it this time wan .. hehe .. i will outstand n lead moi group well ... lolx ...

as for todae... haix .. slowli i alreadi see somethings ... but juz dun wanna talk it out here lah .. coz not fang bian ... haix ..

overall mood ... angry n sad ...