there are plenty of thoughts in my mine.. i really dunno wad to do.. y is my mother not talkin to my mother.. i juz wish that my family could b like b4.. go out as one.. haix.. i realli dun understand.. it seems like oni i m affected.. sometimes i realli wan them to be together but its like.. haix.. there are things i cant tell mama.. and there are things i cant tell papa too.. i juz dunno wad to do sia.. i juz hope that they will understand each other n fogive each other.. i really wanna cry.. sometimes i realli tinkin wad the hell m i? i m so bad.. i juz wan beer to make my sorrow go away.. im so sad now.. hope to drink ou my sorrows.. haix.. i juz wanna listen to sad song n cry my heart out or drink beer drink all my sorrow out.. okie lah.. i shall stop here.. continue later or wad lorx.. wanna go play game alreadi..




okie.. hav been busy this few daes.. sick for the past few daes.. dunn y keep havin headache.. n on sundae i hav flu and cough.. but it lasted for one dae nia.. how i wish it lasted for a long time.. lolx.. but i keep havin headache.. i feel feverish now.. keep popin panadol.. but of coz i m not killing myself lah.. ish to numb the pain.. but i dun its ani good help leix.. i keep feelin the pain in my head.. project project project.. busy wid project.. rushin thru the report.. i ani how do wan.. hope teacher can accept.. hehe.. todae was chaotic in class.. eveibodi dun seems to listen to teacher.. wow.. teacher is like so sad n angry lah.. but den i oso not sae nvr wad.. ppl ask mi question.. she scold mi.. haix.. y m i keep havin headache.. omg.. now my back hurts.. but nvm hu cares.. tomolo i m goin to fast.. lolx.. n trainin.. muahahah.. tomolo my mum is back.. tink no more peace.. but i juz wish that they were in sg.. i dun mind they nag.. but i juz wan them.. juz feel so weird without them.. lolx.. okie lah.. shall stop here n go back to do my project report alreadi.. thats all folk..




okie.. i realli dunno wad m i now.. haix.. realli veri stress up.. todae went out to buy a bag.. hehe.. but although its not veri nice.. but i like it.. lolx.. i realli dunno wads goin on in my family.. it seems that oni i m affected.. n not my sis.. my mother n sis are packin the bag.. they are leaving for malaysia.. too bad i cant join.. bcoz holidae is near.. n i dun wanna miss ani lesson animore.. i hav miss alot of lesson alreadi.. haix.. my life is upside down.. i hav ruin my life.. in sch i m like suck big time.. teacher teachin mi sleepin.. but tryin to stay awake most of the time.. even if stay oso dunno wad she talkin about.. haix.. one dae i will gone crazy man.. haix.. i realli dun understand wad the adult are tinkin.. i m always in the wrong.. my sis is cleverer den mi.. she express best class some more.. haix.. mi leix.. always like to playaful in class.. cannt sit still n listen to teacher.. sometimes i realli feel like sittin down in one corner cryin.. where no ppl will noe.. for mi they think that i m always bringin happiness to ppl around mi.. but wad is on the inside of mi they dunno.. yes its true.. i realise that i bring happiness to ppl around mi.. except my family members.. its time for mi to do something.. but i juz dunno wad to do.. :'( i wanted to work part time so that i can earn money n spend myself.. but they juz dun allow mi.. n i noe.. once i m into this i will into this.. haix.. i m realli veri sick of my life.. wen i m sick.. ppl wont noe.. bcoz i m always bringin happiness to ppl around mi.. there are actualli alot of things that i m worried about.. things like relationship, friendship, and family.. i dun tink i suit to even go into a relationship.. bcoz i juz cant help myself.. there are too mani restriction which i cant get it.. n i hate it.. i juz wan my freedom.. i wan to b single n i wan my freedom.. where is my freedom? :'(.. there is one thing which i like about mi.. wen i end my dae sad.. the next dae i wake up.. i will b fine.. no more sad.. but nth good about it.. bcoz once i start a new dae.. it will end up sad again.. i juz dunno wad the ell my family is up to.. haix.. i really dun understand.. all the problem is on mi.. i juz feel like cryin.. but hu will listen to my sorrows? wad will they tink wen i hav sorrows? will they think that i m juz makin a big fuss out of myself? i noe there are ppl out there worst then mi.. but sometimes.. haix.. i hate myself.. i hate everithing about mi.. i juz hate it.. argh.. teacher call mi sae talk to mi about my work.. she tinks that i can do it.. but i juz let her down.. haix.. she pick mi as a role model for the class.. n student leader.. i dun tink i deserve all this lorx.. haix.. exam is comin alreadi.. sj chalet is near too.. should i bring my book n mug on it while everibody is enjoyin themself? i realli dunno where the true denise is.. i shall stop my sorrows here.. thats all folk..




hey hey.. kind of long nvr blog liaox.. i tink i will take time to stop smoking.. bcoz its kind of like argh.. i smoke less.. but will stop wen the time comes.. hehe.. yesterdae sensei birthdae.. celebrated wid them.. trainin end earli.. den after that went to eat.. wow sae until here.. i realli had fun lorx.. was drinkin man.. den my whole face red.. haha.. n ppl sae i m drunk.. well actualli i m half drunk half not drunk lah.. haha.. den todae wake up.. headache.. here pain there pain.. so wanted to go see doc.. but she sae so mani things.. den i showed attitude.. den she start her naggin again.. den i not happy la.. so i anihow did my test.. i oso din study.. so juz anihow do lah.. some more i not feelin well.. after test i went to see doc.. actualli juz wanna go wid mabel darling.. but den he insist of followin.. den i hav got no choice but to let him follow lorx.. den mi n mabel talk talk talk.. haha.. den we were like sayin dunno wad to sae to the doc sia.. lolx.. den we were given the same room.. so the doc first see mi.. nth wrong.. see mabel so mani thing wrong.. so we both were given two daes mc.. which i intend to stay at home n rest.. den mabel wanna go sch.. lolx.. in order to stay at home.. i told my daddy that tomolo lesson pull forward to todae.. den tomolo no sch.. haha.. keep him in dark.. aniwae ya the doc still ask mi whether i tink its fractured or not.. should hav sae i suspect.. bcoz its pain.. den he like nth like that.. nvm lah.. five two dae mc alreadi.. haha.. okie lah.. shall stop here.. gd nite.. thats all folk..




hey hey.. few daes nvr blog alreadi.. hehe.. fri got trainin went back.. sad to sae oni yr 1s came.. den sat went to help mummy.. had fun there.. bcoz i help her do things.. hehe.. den after that went swimming.. hehe.. went to the wave pool.. den after that went to swim.. hehe.. after swimming.. went jakuzi(dunno how to spell) hehe.. den went home.. but realli had fun there.. i juz wan to tan myself.. anione wanna go sentosa to suntan? lolx.. need sun tan lotion.. haha.. den can be tan.. lolx.. todae.. nth to do.. hehe.. dunno wanna go where sia.. lolx.. so boring.. tinkin of activity to do.. hehe.. okie lah.. shall stop here.. hehe.. thats all folk..




well well well.. todae din go sch.. went to bishan campus instead.. was enjoyin myself there.. make new friends.. hehe.. activity was veri fun though.. i go tan.. hehe.. but until wad colour i still dunno.. hehe.. but i got tanned.. so happy.. was under the sun the whole mornin.. hehe.. bcoz wad playin dunno wad ball lah.. something like table soccer.. but we play real life.. hehe.. now my face n hand is red.. lolx.. the sun was so hot lah.. but still can endure.. haha.. really veri lucky din go sch.. heard that section head wen to our class n nag nag nag.. den teacher oso nag nag nag.. haha.. pity those peeps man.. was smsin my darling mabel.. bcoz she was in sch.. and she is like omg.. eu better take care my gal.. hehe.. todae although miss my class but i had fun.. make friends frm other campus and stuff.. lolx.. n 'ITS MEAL TIME'.. hehe.. we had a little presentation.. n i suddenli tink of its meal time wid the action.. we were laughin.. and my friend act out. wow she is sexy.. n cool.. haha.. TEAM 1 ROCKZ.. hehe.. MEISI ROCK too.. hehe.. ;).. well todae was chicken rice dae.. lunch chicken rice.. dinner oso chicken rice.. lolx.. okie lah.. enough for the dae alreadi.. hehe.. take care.. thats all folk..




todae sch as usual.. had test.. two in one dae.. can die sia.. but one was easy.. e other was nt.. bcoz i dunno how to do.. hehe.. den the teacher was like veri fed up wid us.. haix.. hu cares.. she scold mi for nth still haven sae sorry.. sae wad i din listen in class.. plz lorx.. i m followin the instruction.. okie.. i hav alreadi stop smokin.. its too soon to sae it now.. hehe.. but todae is i leave cig the first dae.. jia you denise.. continue to strive hard.. hehe.. i hav alreadi make myself clear.. no more cig for mi.. hehe..




hey.. here to blog.. yesterdae woke up earli in the mornin juz to go n watch the competition.. was kinda regret bcoz the gals there all so easy to win wan.. but its okie.. i shall continue to train hard n season my injury.. hehe.. had fun there.. lolx.. saw my long time no see best friend n jie.. so qiao lorx.. but they not go karate.. one is do project.. e other one got camp.. wah.. the sch so big horx.. den they got camp run here run there.. wow.. that is diffcult man.. lolx.. okie back to competition.. the gals wan was like shit.. but the guys wan was interesting.. veri interesting.. mr leow came.. den after that he tell us wad to take note n stuff lah.. veri interesting.. first time see this kind of competition.. veri excited for our sch the ppl.. got 3rd.. i oso dunno for wad.. lolx.. wow i see other ppl all veri good sia.. okie.. aniwae our sch the ppl did a good job.. especialli abu.. wow.. he is so cool man.. congrats.. aniwae.. i really hav to train hard n season my injury alreadi.. lolx.. yup.. and todae is mother dae.. hehe.. okie.. so i wish my mother HAPPY MOTHERS DAE.. hehe.. okie.. so i shall stop here.. thats all folk..




so long nvr update.. so now finally hav time to update.. actualli wanna join competition.. father dun allow.. so din hav a chance to take experience.. but nvm.. can go n view the competition.. for the first time.. hehe.. live some more.. haha.. so excited.. gonna cheer for my friend.. hope he can do it.. wed had trainin.. did sparing.. n of coz injured myself.. i was so in pain.. but i wanted to continue.. but den my seniors alreadi rush to mi.. n ask mi whether i was okie.. but i was too pain to talk.. its an old injury which haven recover.. it take a long time to recover man.. but actualli if i dun touch juz do some rubbin nth wrong.. but my intructor help mi rub.. wow.. it hurts alot.. but i wanna thanx him.. hehe.. he really care for us.. hehe.. wen we are injured.. he will ask whether how are we the next dae.. hehe.. n my seniors.. especialli melissa jie &kerlyn jie.. hehe.. i will continue sparin.. but not to use my leg unless is bo bian.. it really take a long time for my injury to recover.. alreadi like 8 week.. bcoz its durin my holidae.. den that dae at mediacorp hit until again.. den spar wid one of my senior injured again.. but that time still can continue.. this time i juz bend down.. actualli wanna continue.. but den too pain to even do a thing.. lolx.. ai ya.. enough of my sad story.. gd nite.. thats all folk..