Monday, February 14, 2005
wad the hell i dun wan tiz to happen lorx haix. y i everitime hab tiz feelin but den i juz cant sae out wad m i? wad m i make off y m i so weak. everitime they ask mi to do den i do m i paid to do? NO. but i oso dunno y i agreed to do haix. i oso hab moi fright ish juz tat i dunno how to sae n they cannt see so y m i like tat. i juz cant tell them moi weakness tat part. aaahhh. y m i doin now aahh enough of scolding lah i really dun wan anithing to happen to moi family wen moi mother shout at anibodi i will cry wan coz i scared tat something will happen to her haix. wad ish tiz man i juz wan peace haix. wad happen todae. we went out after sch went to bugis take neoprint it was so fun lorx hehe. i really cannt forget todae. hehe. but so sad tat da jie n er jie cannt join us so sad haix. y izzit tat they juz can be less busy n spent time together wid us. especially er jie she ish damn busy lorx. until no time to tok to us.
I ate bananas at7:35 PM
Sunday, February 13, 2005
there ish juz tiz bitch hum everibodi hate her but oso dunno she juz like to create trouble. tink wad she n her bf veri big ar. her bf oso not in gang lorx. one dae sure kanna bitten wan i curse her kanna bitten by gang member. haix. she really create alot touble for moi xiaox meix haix i pity them but hu ish goin to pity mi. y i keep pity ppl but den i juz dun tink of moiself. wad ish tiz man i keep helpin other ppl but den wad bout mi wen i need help no bodi ish there for mi wad can i do. wen i need help tat time i go find ppl tat i hab helped b4. but den all kanna turn down wad can i do. haix. y ish there so mani things happenin around mi. i juz cant take it animore liaox. y? y? y? y cant i juz get some help frm them i oso dunno y?
I ate bananas at3:00 PM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
haix why izzit everithing bad things happenin around mi. i hope tat nth will happen to moi grandmother. she ish havin alot of prob n it ish gettin worst. i juz wish tat it will not worsen e condition lorx. i dun wan to be hurt again. frist moi grandfather now moi mother side e grandmother. haix. wad on earth had i done tat make mi wanna suffer. i dun wan another blow liaox haix. moi grandfather make mi no mood for dunno how mani weeks liaox den now moi grandmother. sumore wen moi mother go visit her ish durin moi sec 3 annual camp den i cant see her haix. moi sis can pon ten for dunno how mani daes lorx. juz wish tat nth will happen to moi grandmother lorx i really wish tat she can live till i get married haix y izzit moi family havin alot of prob. like stroke ar high blood pressure. n now heart prob haix. somemore moi grandmother sae wad its time for her to go liaox i really feel like crying now. but i juz cant cry. i dun wan anithing to happen to moi grandmother. i dun wan moi grandmother like moi grandfather die of cancer. somemore now ish chinese new year da ji le shi ar. nth will happen to her wan. i dun wan to cry for dunno how mani daes. especially wen it happen durin moi camp. n it will affect moi mood wan lorx. wen it affects moi mood i will dun eat dun sleep n dun do anithing wan haix. nth wil happen wan. lets pray for it. no i mean i will hab to pray for it. no mood to laugh liaox lah. ahh cant take it animore liaox ar. i dun wan anithing to happen durin moi camp tat time i wan to enjoy it.
I ate bananas at11:15 PM
another boring dae. nth to do. m still waitin for somebodi to tok to mi n change mi n oso guide mi along. still haben find one. but i oso hope tat i can find lorx. ppl hu had alreadi turn into a new leaf. coz i need advice frm them y m i in tiz condition now. wad had i done moi previous life. wad did i do wrong tat make mi muz get tiz punishment haix wad izzit tat make mi. everibodi look down on mi so sianx. y m i in tiz condition everibodi dun beleive mi wad m i goin to do. can tat some one tat i m waititin for juz come n rescue mi i realli need ur help. if tiz person come along i realli wil promise him in wad ever he or she ask mi to do. although i keep braking promise but i will really try my best to turn over a new leaf. i really dunno wad to do lorx i need advise frm ppl. plz give mi a good scolding n oso give mi some good advise. can tat person tat i m tokin about juz appear in front of mi i really need ur help. i really need ur help. i hab a sis tat help mi alot but i dun wan to let her worry bout mi animore she oso hab her things to worry. haix. i oso dunno whether she still care for mi or nt. coz i everitime make her worry n oso keep on askin her to go out i tink she oso dun wan to go out wid mi lorx. haix. wad a failure mi i so sad. i noe tat there are alot ppl like mi but then i really cannt take it liaox lorx. but they can. y m i born in e world of mistake. n i cant go back to a normal life i oso dunno y i become rude to moi chi teacher. mayb coz i hate her bah she veri e irritating lorx.
I ate bananas at3:52 PM
Friday, February 11, 2005
haix wad a boring dae i had. wad m i doin man. i m really bored n i relly feel like dyin dun wan to live on animore. coz i cant take it animore. y m i bullied by so mani ppl. i juz feel like mi ish e wad lorx. they ask mi do den i do y i so foolish i m a bad gal useless gal nth good will happen to ppl around mi wen i together wid them haix. i m alreadi in deep trouble liaox n i still get into so mani trouble wad m i doin can someone juz scold mi n tell mi tat i hab to wake up and start a new life. i m juz repeating wad i did last time. y m i so foolish i juz dun get it can some one give mi a scolding n at least guide mi to do a better thing. i juz need somebodi to guide mi along so tat i can do a better things. wad can i do. can someone help mi plz. i realli need some one to help mi now i dun wan to go back to moi old waes. i always wan to turn into a new person but den i juz dunno y i cant everitime i try but den it juz got back to old waes again y izzit like tat can some one juz tell mi. i need help.
I ate bananas at10:47 PM
