Wednesday, November 08, 2006
haix ... cold war ... haix .. y izzit tat i m e one tat cause unhappiness to eu ??? i wanted to sae how i feel but i juz dun dare .. eu noe .. haix .. i m timid n useless ... cant do good things .. i m not like mei mei veri good in studies .. i mayb in ite .. n not in sc 5 .. coz i noe i cannt cope wid sec 5 de .. haix .. i hav type all i wanted to sae here .. but do eu noe how much i wanted eu to trust mi .. i hav watch so mani touchin movie .. but wad e hell come to moi mind .. ish always cold war wid eu all .. y e hell m i in this world n make eu all unhappy .. i may not find moi happiness ... ppl can go out .. but wad i do .. stay at home .. study .. eu tink i will study ?? eu are wrong .. i dun .. i m so useless .. i cant study .. i tink ite mayb e best choice for mi .. everidae come home muz fake a smile go out oso muz fake a smile n tinkin of explanation .. i m so old .. yet i stil hav to be home so earli .. n cant hav moi own freedom .. goin out .. i m stupid .. i cant study .. wen i was young .. wen i see ppl can go out late .. i always wish i could wen i grow older .. but now wen i m at their age .. i cant .. i m like still playin hide n seek .. wad e hell ish happen ... seein ppl hangin outside till late ... n mi leix ... everitime i feel like cyin .. i cant .. i see moi peers enjoyin themself .. nt worryin their parent will scold them ... but mi .. being e oldest .. hav to be home so earli .. haix .. i cant study .. i m useless .. i cant help it .. i m so confused now .. no matter wad happen .. i m always in e wrong .. i may not be e worst .. but e prob ish .. neber mind .. no bodi will inderstand how i feel .. sometimes i realli feel like cryin .. but i juz dun wanna let moi peers noe tat i m sad .. n havin famili probs .. still sae wad i go out neber tell .. eu tink i tell liaox eu will let mi go out meh ?? haix ... wen can i be happy ??? i m such a useless n naughty daughter ... haix ... cold war ish wad moi parent noe how to give mi .. haix ... i always envy ppl around mi ... this ish wad i advise eu all treasure while eu can ... dun wait till eu lost liaox den eu regret ... haix .. i will b strong no matter wad happen ... haix ..
tats all folk ...
I ate bananas at1:35 PM
