Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Feeling now iz veri loneli n sad. wad happen? sumthing realli bad happen. haiz. wonder where iz my Jie now. realli miss her man. juz feel like killin myself now. but dunno y. keep havin tiz feelin wen i m down. haiz. so sad. i keep a promise liaoz. will disappear frm her 4 a while oni. wait till things r better den i go meet her. feelin realli guilty man. i dunno wad hav i done 2 make myself ended like tiz 2dae. i see wendy so happi but mi not. wanna kill myself oso kannt. haiz. a promise iz a promise. kannt be broken. i promise alot of ppl liaoz leiz. haiz. realli need 2 go n face 2 wall or tok 2 myself. juz hope tat things will get better for mi man. things aint gettin better 4 mi. they r gettin worst. neber mind. i will need 2 endure it.
I ate bananas at6:00 AM
